Life, if that’s what you call it

Here I am writing my first blog on our own website. This is a big change because I have been tied to MySpace for two years now. I’m still on there its the best way to keep up with my long- lost friends but this is a completely different experience. This also isn’t the only change being made right now.

Just a couple of weeks ago I started going to a therapist again because lets face it I have Post Partum Depression on top of my past history with depression this is no suprise to myself or George. Well, she made a ton of suggestions to me on how to make my life easier and for the first time I didn’t ignore it. I have started to go to the gym, I’ve created a home schedule for us (although I haven’t been following it yet) and I’ve joined a local mommy group. It’s a good group and truth be told I have to stop hiding in my little corner of the world and start making some friends so that’s why I joined. And no I’m not trying to replace those dear friends on the mainland but you guys are too far away when I need someone to vent to or ask advice or go shopping with or even just get a cup of coffee.

I’ve also joined the church choir and I’m going to be auditioning for the community theatre. I have forgotten how much I enjoy performing. Even after years of chasing the dream of being a full time performer I’ve decided that I would rather bw doing something else with my time. After many years of talking about it I have finally started my book. Now lets just hope that I don’t get writers block. I just hope that all of these things will help me get back to being me.

I’ve been trying to adjust as best I can but I am still having problems. My biggest issue is that I miss home. Yes being in Hawaii is great, I’ve always loved the sunshine and the water but it’s not enough. I miss the true friendships I had, I miss being able to hop in the car and take a long drive for a weekend, I miss driving 45 minutes to just go to karaoke and have a beer with friends. I guess that I just have to try and stick it out untill we get back to the east coast. Well I have got to go to sleep.