So for a long time I have been dealing with unexplained pain and fatigue. Sometimes I can attribute it to the fact that I am chasing kids all day long but that only explains about 30% of the times that I am tired and hurting. I have been dealing with this since before I had kids so I have been searching for answers. When I first went to my doctor in Virginia about it she dismissed me as a hypocondriac and told me that it was all in my head. Everytime I went to her she made me feel like I was crazy, and she is the reason that it took 6 years for them to finally take my gallbladder. Because of her notes on my record they wouldn’t do the surgery until it was nearly too late.
Ok, back to the subject. Since we have been here I have been pregnant for the majority of the time so I’ve only seen my doctor 4 times and three of those were for my gallbladder. Yesterday I went in to see her and I was expecting to be dismissed once again but she surprised me. When I told her about my issues and my family history she automatically started to order blood test. It felt so good to see that she believed me and that she wanted to find answers too.
What scares me is that one of the tests she is running is for Lupus. Since my mom has lupus I have seen what can happen and that scares me. I know that it would be different with me but the fact that I have lived so close to it in the past gave me a perspective that scares the crap out of me. I want to know what is wrong with me and I want to get help so that I can live a some what normal life but the thought of knowing is scarey. The thought that it might be something even worse is even scarier. I just thought that I would share