Ok, i’ve done it I have joined the other millions of people in this world that play World of Warcraft. I really didn’t think that I was going to enjoy it but i really really do. I love the fact that for the short time that I play each day I can completely escape my current reality into a different world. In this world I am a hero that can heal myself and anyone around me with the click of a button. I get to run around helping everyone around me and become the hero. It is an amazing release for me and I have grown to love it.
I found myself in a strange situation a week or so ago. I was having issues with my lupus and I decided to get on to the game to try and escape but almost immediately logged off in utter frustration. I stayed off the game for many days until I realized what was causing my frustration. I was for the past few months using WoW as a way to escape from my illness but I didn’t want to use it. I realized that I was actually jealous of my character. I was jealous of her because she can run for hours on end, fight anything that comes in her way and to top it all off she can heal ANY illness within herself or anyone around. So is it any wonder why I would feel a twinge of jealousy when watching her do these things?
I am pretty certain that there aren’t many people aound that are living with a chronic illness that wouldn’t give anything in order to be able to heal themselves with a wave of their hand but I wonder how many of them use a video game to do just that. It took me a while to realize why I chose to be the character that I created. When I sat and thought about it it made a lot of sense. I play a character that is slim, fit and tall. I am none of those things. Also I chose that she would be among a class of people that can not only shapeshift but can also heal and control somethings in nature. Then when it came to deciding on what her main purpose would be I made sure that she would be a healer. Basically she can do everything that I can’t. In many ways she is the exact opposite of me but in many ways she is the same. kind of cool when I think about it. I only hope that I don’t have a problem with be jealous of my character anymore. Well either that or the medical community needs to really get cracking on an instant cure for lupus. Ahhhh… I can only wish
So what does that say about my and my character? I chose a hooved big goofy looking blue guy who, though he can heal in a pinch, chooses to run around and throw lightning bolts at things until they’re toast?
So, Alliance scum, eh? =P
Damn you Night Elves and Draenei! I can’t really talk, I’ve been leveling a human warrior, but I’ll always be a Hordie for life.
What server are you guys on, anyway?