Once upon a time, I was a healthy active person. I went to the gym daily for 2-3 hours work outs. I would go out dancing and spent time doing anything to keep active. Over time this started to fade. My Lupus symptoms, all though undiagnosed at the time, started to take away the thing that I enjoyed most. My workouts were my way to destress I used them to relax and have time just for me so for that to be taken away hurt. As these things that I loved started to disappear from my life I started to lose confidence in myself. I didn’t care about being fashionable, wearing makeup or having my hair done a certain way, I started to lose myself. And it wasn’t surprising that in this time frame I slipped into a deep depression.
I don’t know what has changed but lately I haven’t been feeling as down. A few days ago I looked at myself in the mirror I didn’t like what I saw because I didn’t see myself. I saw a person who stopped caring about herself, someone who looked like she had stopped living. I have let myself gain weight, and stopped caring about how I looked and that’s not me. So I made a decision that I was going to take the time to get back to who I was. So I am giving myself 30 days; not 30 days to completely change but 30 days to get it started.
So here is the plan: Over the next few months I am going to make changes in my life. I will doing something to work toward these goals everyday and I am going to share this with you my readers daily on this blog. This month I am going to focus on becoming more active and lose at least 10 lbs. Yes that may be conservative but given the fact that my lupus is unpredictable I think it is better to set small goals and reach or surpass them than to make large ones that I won’t be able to make. I will be using tools such as Wii Fit, EA Active, yoga etc. to achieve this and I feel confident that I will make it. I am doing low impact circuits on Active to hopefully not aggravate my lupus and fibro. And using yoga to help stretch muscle, joints and stress.
So today is day one. I currently weigh 205lbs and wear a size 18 pants.I started the day by completing the first day of a 30 day challenge on EA Active. And even though I feel a little sore from it I feel good. So here’s hoping tomorrow will go as well as today did. See you all then!
Good Luck! on 1/1/09 I weighed 192 lbs, and I’m down to 171. It’s a hard road, but I think it’ll make you feel better, and maybe it’ll help your Lupus symptoms too? I’ve got about 30 lbs left to go before I’m happy with my weight and I definitely haven’t always been the best at keeping to my diet and exercise. Don’t beat yourself up about any backslides, just keep moving forward!
Hi, I really want to wish you well.
It sounds like a good goal. I’m glad you’re going to pace yourself.
I went through something similar recently when I realized I wanted to care about how I look again. Sort of taking something back from being sick. So, I’m trying to learn new things to do with my hair and investigating makeup. So far it is helping and I hope your plan helps you as much as mine has helped me.
Go you! The challenge to finding oneself again is always tough, but worth the journey. Love you!